Apologies in Order

First off guys, i wanna apologize for taking so long since my last blog post. But since then its been such a turbulent ride, during which my track, was still slowly creeping into a full pledged weapon. But let me get back on track. First off there was a biiiig question mark about my future. It started from my dreams being grounded to taking off once more and currently its somewhere in between. Somewhere, where i am not certain of what is gonna happen but I made sure i bought myself some time, 7 days to be exact. Within those 7 days, somethings gotta give.....

Apologies in Order

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.....God Gaave me a Phone Call

.........And then god gave me a phone call this morning.

.....God Gaave me a Phone Call

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Blurred Lines : Dream Big, Castles in the Sky

2 of the most common phrases, Castles in the Sky and Dream Big. But aren't these two contrary?

    It all started today when I asked myself what I had done wrong in my life to get to this stage, I wanted to analyse the root cause that clearly shattered my self esteem and left me wallowing in depression. And to no one's surprise I arrived at these two phrases

    I started backtracking my progress to the days when I enjoyed company with my homie Chrome, I was around for fourteen I guess, so what had I done wrong I asked?

   The answer was staring at me the whole time, I  dreamt big, too big?  But isn't that what we are told ever since we step foot on kindergarten well not kindergarten but ever since we can remember, people telling us left and right to dream big, but what happens if your dream is too big, too huge sometimes that it's destined for failure and what happens when you've got this huge aura of confidence and then one day the bleak reality hits you, when for so long you've termed anything less than your dream nothing at all?

   Even though you may have a decent future but one where your dreams dont come true, and you cannot live with that even though you know that there are tons of other people out there in the world suffering.

   Do Note that that is not what happened to me. It's just food for thought.

Blurred Lines : Dream Big, Castles in the Sky

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Emily Tourner

Okay first & foremost, i never meant a word i said. I was just mad you stopped replying but oh well now. Never forget ya,

H&K
XOXO

Emily Tourner

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Happy Birthday!! ! It's officially my month!

Wow is it here already, seems like a year just flew by so quickly..... Naaaa if I say that it means I've done nothing new since my last bday, well in fact there's been plenty, most of it being hard work and laying a foundation for the future. Oh and you guys ready for a mature story?

   I'm happy for the fact that my 15 year old self could look up to me now, it's something that Ive always wanted! Here's a cliché for you, age is just a number, well it is, we re not defined by how old we are instead by what we've achieved and who we've become. Is there anything I regret that I hadn't done? Not that I can think of, maybe I couldve altered how my first date went Coz it took me a while to realise how much a disaster it was, but it's a learning curve.

    So can I hit a strip club now that I'm 18? Well yes, but probably not, Coz for all my money's worth, I will not find one easily. I've been working out  a lot too, my goals are still quite far away but I'm inching towards it, slow but steady.

   What more can I say? The next few years will totally shape the future, totally from who I become to what goals I would have. They are important and so Is making the right choices. Honestly I'm anxious as hell but what good does anxiety yield us? All that's needed is a clear game plan.

   If there's one thing books taught me, it's that we choose how happy we are, it might sounds cuckoo but at any given time we can choose to be happy, it's simply our decision no matter what our surrounding looks or feels like. So am I happy? Yeah, well cutting the cord on my social life is not really getting there but hey music always comes first.

    As far as girls go, at the beginning there were a lot, had a lot of fun, took all the great memories and filed them neatly into cabinets in my brain. Okay here's a confession, or should I say achievement, I made out with a teacher, twice, during school hours. The first was kinda weird, we were alone in her class, and just sitting there talking to each other casually.

   Then all of a sudden she kisses my head and, she holds my hand and drags me to a corner, every guys dream and we start making out, the weird part was that at first she kept biting my lips so much it actually hurt given she had sharp incisiors, then we stopped, I surveyed the surrounding for a while came back and restarted, halfway through we sat down for a break and she claimed my hands were shaking, well honestly they weren't okay maybe a little, and she was acting like I was a kid and this was too big a moment.

     I was like 'you're blind' and we resumed, this went on in loops, I noticed her face shone bright red, blood was pumping I assumed. Oh and once we did this thing where I was sitting and she was standing so I pulled her towards me and kissed her pussy so hard holding her from the butt, well not actually her pussy but ther clothes, removing them would've been too big a risk.
   
       Moving on, once I even started thrusting her a little from behind, it came naturally but soon stopped as I realized this was too early for that. The climax came when I freed her left boob from her bra and sucked on it for like 5 seconds, salivating it real good, just after that she said I had to leave, maybe her pussy flooded then Coz her boyfriend was inactive and they rarely had fun but yeah I immediately turned and left. The world spun around its axis, as if nothing had happened.

     The second time was very risky, and quick, we were in a class, after a tournament, you know how parents flood the school and there's commotion outside, well even without closing the door, I pressed her to a wall, and we made out while I simultaneously juiced her boobs, it was brief but it felt good, I was reminded of her familiar scent as I breathed her in.

      There's a September Story for you guys, wanna shoutout to my homie Chrome who amazingly never forget my bday, I've known him since kindergarten and it's an amazing bond we have. Forever man, much love. And to the fans, Go Get It!

Happy Birthday!! ! It's officially my month!

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