Who should I Be? When Im 19

I know it's gonna come soon, bang, this September it's gonna hit me before I even know it. These days I constantly use the excuse 'hey I'm just 18' like when I drive the car and other drivers get angry or being in a social or responsible situation such as trying to guide or navigate a new surrounding. But I'm afraid that won't last very long. All these thing do serve as valuable experience and I'm grateful everyday for all the things I have in my life. But, ultimately age is just a number, it doesn't dictate how we look, who we are, or what we're supposed to be.

         I've seen countless people who look both younger and older than their age, I've been with people older than me who act like children and guys younger than me who are more manly than I am. I've been with this girl, who I'm privileged to call my ex, who by the age of 11 attempted suicide, 12 or 13 travelled alone in a flight and back, who was raised by a single mother given that their father was a movie director, oh cliché! But I'm not intimidate by that, it helps me learn, it shapes who I am, I observe all those people closely and pick up bits and pieces.

So, 19, I've still got time, but what is the most important thing I need to achieve in that time I asked myself today, who do I need to be by 19? Well it's simply, given my consequences all I can do is prepare for the future :

Bodybuilding
Learning another language
Improving my personality
Attitude
Looks
Intelligence
Athleticism

I guess if I can keep doing what I'm doing right now I'd tick all the boxes by the time I'm 19, coz in the end, what I really want is no regrets.

Who should I Be? When Im 19

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Disaster Date 1st : Almost

So….went outside….did a hairspray on my hair……put on the bands, rings. Headed straight to Food city n I was very disappointed to find that there were none of her favourite chocolates…….so I texted her and then she said its okay coz she jus wanted to see me. But then I found 3 left (Bueno’s) n bought them along with other chocz that cost me a total of 1 600.  Then I went to the next shop and bought a small gift and a teddy for her.

She came to pizza hut earlier and I was waiting for her somewhere else…..so when she texted me that she was in…I quickly rushed to pizza hut….n there she was on a corner table staring at her fone looking down. So I took the seat and forced a smile….she was soooo shy then that she talked very little and told me to ask her something then she ll answer. So I asked all sorts of questions like do u celebrate xmas, have you bought tickets, what color youre hair….n she replied quite shyly. So I went and ordered a medium sized pizza and 2 fantas (her favourite).

The order took some time to come so we just talked and talked. Occasionally we would each others eyes and smile. Then we started eating and both of us found it very hard and laughed wen I accidently sent a piece flying!

Their dad was home so I thought he ll go by 3.30 but wen 3.30 arrived he was still home. So I asked ______when he s goin. So we had nothing to do so we went out and had an uneasy conversation.

We had no place to go (coz I was planning to go home but dad was home) so we decided to go to food city again but I could see in her face she didn’t like it when ALL  of the bypassers stared at us. So I took her on a 3wheel. We went to foodcity and I asked her to pick something. While she was picking I took a call to anjani and asked her what to do coz her dad was still at home. She suggested walking in the paddy field next to her house. So we both got on a 3wheel and went to the paddyfield. On the 3wheel I gave her presents and she was SOOOO happy!!! We talked along the way and I could feel that she was more comfortable now coz it was near her home territory. And it was her first date.

So while we were on the road ______ (ex) and _____ came in bikes. She got soo scared but me and _____ jus smiled when they passed us. She got so worried then that after that she was like scared of any boy who came in the road. So we had nowhere to go and _____ said her dad was sleeping!!!!! We stayed in the field and it looked like it was gonna rain. Only I had an umberella and she said he liked getting wet…so I told id leave her and ill stay under da umberella. Den she was like we ll share the umberella.

So we walked up and down the paddy field and then ____ came with earphones listenin 2 music and she said that sh ll go home wit her. So we said bye…….and an awkward gesture….like a half committed kiss.. like making that face to kiss when we were like 1 feet away….but I swear the faces came so close…I think we were both embarrassed but I turned…and came….

Plus Heres the actual telephone conv. :-

And A rare video :-

Disaster Date 1st : Almost

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Happy Birthday!! ! It's officially my month!

Wow is it here already, seems like a year just flew by so quickly..... Naaaa if I say that it means I've done nothing new since my last bday, well in fact there's been plenty, most of it being hard work and laying a foundation for the future. Oh and you guys ready for a mature story?

   I'm happy for the fact that my 15 year old self could look up to me now, it's something that Ive always wanted! Here's a cliché for you, age is just a number, well it is, we re not defined by how old we are instead by what we've achieved and who we've become. Is there anything I regret that I hadn't done? Not that I can think of, maybe I couldve altered how my first date went Coz it took me a while to realise how much a disaster it was, but it's a learning curve.

    So can I hit a strip club now that I'm 18? Well yes, but probably not, Coz for all my money's worth, I will not find one easily. I've been working out  a lot too, my goals are still quite far away but I'm inching towards it, slow but steady.

   What more can I say? The next few years will totally shape the future, totally from who I become to what goals I would have. They are important and so Is making the right choices. Honestly I'm anxious as hell but what good does anxiety yield us? All that's needed is a clear game plan.

   If there's one thing books taught me, it's that we choose how happy we are, it might sounds cuckoo but at any given time we can choose to be happy, it's simply our decision no matter what our surrounding looks or feels like. So am I happy? Yeah, well cutting the cord on my social life is not really getting there but hey music always comes first.

    As far as girls go, at the beginning there were a lot, had a lot of fun, took all the great memories and filed them neatly into cabinets in my brain. Okay here's a confession, or should I say achievement, I made out with a teacher, twice, during school hours. The first was kinda weird, we were alone in her class, and just sitting there talking to each other casually.

   Then all of a sudden she kisses my head and, she holds my hand and drags me to a corner, every guys dream and we start making out, the weird part was that at first she kept biting my lips so much it actually hurt given she had sharp incisiors, then we stopped, I surveyed the surrounding for a while came back and restarted, halfway through we sat down for a break and she claimed my hands were shaking, well honestly they weren't okay maybe a little, and she was acting like I was a kid and this was too big a moment.

     I was like 'you're blind' and we resumed, this went on in loops, I noticed her face shone bright red, blood was pumping I assumed. Oh and once we did this thing where I was sitting and she was standing so I pulled her towards me and kissed her pussy so hard holding her from the butt, well not actually her pussy but ther clothes, removing them would've been too big a risk.
   
       Moving on, once I even started thrusting her a little from behind, it came naturally but soon stopped as I realized this was too early for that. The climax came when I freed her left boob from her bra and sucked on it for like 5 seconds, salivating it real good, just after that she said I had to leave, maybe her pussy flooded then Coz her boyfriend was inactive and they rarely had fun but yeah I immediately turned and left. The world spun around its axis, as if nothing had happened.

     The second time was very risky, and quick, we were in a class, after a tournament, you know how parents flood the school and there's commotion outside, well even without closing the door, I pressed her to a wall, and we made out while I simultaneously juiced her boobs, it was brief but it felt good, I was reminded of her familiar scent as I breathed her in.

      There's a September Story for you guys, wanna shoutout to my homie Chrome who amazingly never forget my bday, I've known him since kindergarten and it's an amazing bond we have. Forever man, much love. And to the fans, Go Get It!

Happy Birthday!! ! It's officially my month!

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