Who should I Be? When Im 19

I know it's gonna come soon, bang, this September it's gonna hit me before I even know it. These days I constantly use the excuse 'hey I'm just 18' like when I drive the car and other drivers get angry or being in a social or responsible situation such as trying to guide or navigate a new surrounding. But I'm afraid that won't last very long. All these thing do serve as valuable experience and I'm grateful everyday for all the things I have in my life. But, ultimately age is just a number, it doesn't dictate how we look, who we are, or what we're supposed to be.

         I've seen countless people who look both younger and older than their age, I've been with people older than me who act like children and guys younger than me who are more manly than I am. I've been with this girl, who I'm privileged to call my ex, who by the age of 11 attempted suicide, 12 or 13 travelled alone in a flight and back, who was raised by a single mother given that their father was a movie director, oh cliché! But I'm not intimidate by that, it helps me learn, it shapes who I am, I observe all those people closely and pick up bits and pieces.

So, 19, I've still got time, but what is the most important thing I need to achieve in that time I asked myself today, who do I need to be by 19? Well it's simply, given my consequences all I can do is prepare for the future :

Bodybuilding
Learning another language
Improving my personality
Attitude
Looks
Intelligence
Athleticism

I guess if I can keep doing what I'm doing right now I'd tick all the boxes by the time I'm 19, coz in the end, what I really want is no regrets.

Who should I Be? When Im 19

6:18 PM birthday, blog, countries, dreams, experiences, girls, guy, love, personality, photography, places, resolutions, swag, teen, travel, what is my purpose, who am i, who do i want to be

The Bar We Set

We are often defined by the bar we set ourselves. That bar totally determines what we achieve in life, how great we become, how ambitious we are.

I set the bar very very high when I was very young and guess what it paid off handsomely. Although it hasn't always been that way since my last few posts discussed where the lines are blurred between setting the bar high and building Castles in the sky. So let me take you guys through the process :-

1) Parents tell us to set the bar high when we are children, dream big they say, and so we do

2) As you grow up, you set certain limits, the world sets limits, you define yourself by a set of rules, now depending on how high you set the bar when you were a kid there may be more or less rules.
Ex :- Don't walk naked in public

3) At some point the truth stings like a bee. Your goals are actually far off, seems impossible to reach them. Here most people choose to give up and they do the most dangerous thing a human being could ever do, They become complacent and settle.
Others may choose to lower the bar, as the famous saying goes. 'Shoot for the stars, you'll land somewhere in the moon'
Well that's what I did, and by no means is it over yet.

4) The funny thing is that it's a cycle, at least for me, the bar gets raised and lowered, raised and lowered, there has got to be a compromise somewhere but if there's one thing you should pray for, is that you never find this compromise.

The Bar We Set

12:51 AM achieve goals, bar, blog, commitment, Complacency, conquer, dreams, expectations, growing up, Life cycle, limits, passion, path, rules

Apologies in Order

First off guys, i wanna apologize for taking so long since my last blog post. But since then its been such a turbulent ride, during which my track, was still slowly creeping into a full pledged weapon. But let me get back on track. First off there was a biiiig question mark about my future. It started from my dreams being grounded to taking off once more and currently its somewhere in between. Somewhere, where i am not certain of what is gonna happen but I made sure i bought myself some time, 7 days to be exact. Within those 7 days, somethings gotta give.....

Apologies in Order

11:25 PM blog, career, dreams, grounded, life, make it, music, path, questions, singer, time

Blurred Lines : Dream Big, Castles in the Sky

2 of the most common phrases, Castles in the Sky and Dream Big. But aren't these two contrary?

    It all started today when I asked myself what I had done wrong in my life to get to this stage, I wanted to analyse the root cause that clearly shattered my self esteem and left me wallowing in depression. And to no one's surprise I arrived at these two phrases

    I started backtracking my progress to the days when I enjoyed company with my homie Chrome, I was around for fourteen I guess, so what had I done wrong I asked?

   The answer was staring at me the whole time, I  dreamt big, too big?  But isn't that what we are told ever since we step foot on kindergarten well not kindergarten but ever since we can remember, people telling us left and right to dream big, but what happens if your dream is too big, too huge sometimes that it's destined for failure and what happens when you've got this huge aura of confidence and then one day the bleak reality hits you, when for so long you've termed anything less than your dream nothing at all?

   Even though you may have a decent future but one where your dreams dont come true, and you cannot live with that even though you know that there are tons of other people out there in the world suffering.

   Do Note that that is not what happened to me. It's just food for thought.

Blurred Lines : Dream Big, Castles in the Sky

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School Vs Dreams

Sometimes you really gotta choose who you hang out with coz even the person who you spend most time with might be a nuisance at times. A nuisance that affects you a lot. Sometimes their jokes might not be so funny. Sometimes what they say may hurt your pride. Sometimes they may chip away at your self esteem. Find the right friends, Just saying. For more clarification surround yourself with people who have similar interests and dreams. A lesson learnt the hard way by some. And btw when they start to intimidate you, dont start calling it Swag, now thats whack. 
I mean school shouldnt be that hard in the first place, especially if the school dosent meet your standards, personally, dont give a fuck, coz it all dont matter, yet seeing all pretty girls makes you wanna live up to your reputation especially if youre the senior most class. Sometimes i flatout hate school, sometimes its all fun. But given the choice id rather chase my dreams rather than spend time on school

School Vs Dreams

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