Confession Night

Confession Night
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I think I accidentally killed my conscious in a plane last year man my lyrics were in sleep mode

Even probbably had my mind jacked off like inception in a dream though

But now its 14 in a summers day
the day's gone as the night weighs

the path that I chose 
the lyrucs that I wrote 
resonable doubts and the memory labes that got clogged

questionable decisions I take it all back and try and put my pillow underneath fore I fall back

wrong choices that came off coz I was blinded by these tall stacks

had my own niggas banging at the door claiming they were all blacks

penicillin in my room
concealing all these wounds
and the girl you fking hate you
while your fans are like we made you
please lemme just fall back to my bed
and try and conceal these troubled thoughts in my head

13 I was hiding behind a pair of shades
14 I was hot but I got never laid
15 reborn while on my girl's bed
16 the stormy breakup fore we went dead

17 in a turn
the ladies that I earned
the lessons that I learned
the fires that re-burned

yeahhh I thought it was all well and good

damn its been a long time since shorty wrote his lyrics on his own time
the cascades the doors and the marble floors are all dying
as far as I can see, since he left its been a long time
yet I still carry the weight of the guilt like it was my crime

a nickel and a dime its been so hard lately
bending backwards for that one spouse
and she still claims I aint bending enough coz she thinks maybe I got more doubts
wow!

the breakup blues got me drinking booze again
damn I swear its not even worth for this insaneeeee bitch
hit up the chrome and be like nothing was the same
and say americaa we madeeee it

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clock ticks 12 flooding memories of our first kiss
new year's eve the rush of adrenaline ahhh I so badly miss
glance down at the apple, no call not even a text shit
sinking feeling of forever alone hits clad with an iron fist

oh well I guess you loose some and win some

like the fairytale love that didnt happen coz there weren't one
like all those perfect girls I met but was cursed never to hold on
like this russian girl who said she had to leave but it had been fun
like my second closest mate who eyed my girl fore they fked once

ahhh it was all donee

to be honest I confess I never loved my first girl
for her it was me whereas my perspective was a wide world
switch up the genders same story and viola this russian girl
years later gave up all hopes on that one pearl
coz her hormones had just flooded 
plus her teenage mind was a twirl world

crazier still this aussie girl who never existed,  never had a face
emily tourner a girl quite biased to her religion and race
yet I never lost faith
even when her papa scored this job on the states
funny how words can be deceiving 
make you feel like you're the best
but underneath its all just evil
when you learn its just another stupid test

the weight don't feel no lighter even though I went all out
all my exes like the rest man I swear I just hateee it
and all the screaming at the clubs translated to a sore mouth
and ended up loosing every girl that I cameee with

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